i just published a 2000+ post (did NOT expect it to be that long) on my private blog
it never used to be like that. i could always show up here and say things but recently i’ve realised that i can’t. people could read this (DUH) and it’s not that i’m saying anything bad (hardly have those to say – not because i’m a good person, mind you, but because i am just so tired + can’t be bothered. or maybe i’m getting oLd. AgE cHaNgEs YoU).
but it’s that it’s become apparent that more people than i expect know about this blog, and not everything i want to say i’m comfortable telling the whole world (strange, i know right).
therefore it is conceivable that this public-facing blog will be dead for a while, as i publish my thoughts in the private blog, put up the rare piece on produkc, and keep up with my writing on drfwz (been LOVING that part).
but here’s a snippet of a bit of reflection that was included in the just-published post: i don’t want to be famous. i used to want to, honestly, but really, no more. i don’t want to be recognised when i’m outside. i want to be able to happily be me and not receive special/extra attention just because i’m known.
i want to be able to say OOOORA! ORAORAORAORAORAOROA! while grocery shopping (true story) and not have that /be worried that that’ll turn into a viral post/video just cos i’m kNoWn. i like that i can be a stranger to the world. it’s a bit difficult being a teacher, especially in my current context, but for the most part it’s fine.
so no, no thank you to fame. i’ve come to love anonymity and actually feel freed that i no longer have the need to be known/popular. for that i’m grateful.
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